Love without suffering is worthless...............

another day has arrive n im still really sick.hahaha God knows that ive been up n about so much that i needed to get some rest n so i m gettin plenty of it now. i woke up this morning really early actually coz my head was throbbing and i was asking God how He went through the pain of bearing that heavy crown of thorns pierced deep through His skull. The pain must have been worst than a hundred stabbing knives and i cant even bear the thought of the pain He went through.

hence He reminded me that love without suffering is worthless and that is so true. The more one begins to unite themselves with the pains of living in this life, the more the person will see life as a gift and not as a curse hence loving it even more. Life in this world brings about suffering and pain but these are not the very reason why one should give up but rather the very reason one should go on. as we go through suffering our ability to love is purified just as gold is purified in the fire.

He loved us to the point of embracing suffering which lead Him to His last breath. and even at His last breath, he gave it all for us. He truly showed us how to love and what love really is on that cross and i ask myself am i truly ready to take up that responsibility to save souls giving up my life? can i say here i am Lord without the slightest doubt and worry. i know this is truly difficult but i have to pray for His strenght to lift me out of my selfish shell and to embrace a life of total kenosis(self-emptying)

i am learnin to love as He loves now but i have such a long way to go but i know that His footsteps will lead me there. Unconditional love, loving not only when it hurts but even if it hurts, loving at all cost without countin the cost. That is what i am striving for.

It all starts with a single step......a single sacrifice......a single act of selfdenial.........a simple act selfless giving for that single person who needs love the most......i am called to serve and serve i shall....till the end of my days....until i am called to His side.......and ohhhh how i await that day.